New Blog Site?

I offically now have three different blogging sites, Livejournal, Vox and this one. Livejournal I am just tired of and I never get a response on anything meaningful so it's almost like what's the point of writing? Vox, only one person I know has a Vox and I half the time it won't even work for me. So I decided to make this one now the question is - Will I actually use it? I guess we will see. I used to write about anything and everything and now I hardly ever right and it sucks. I miss writing.

It's actually a huge step for me to make a public blog usually mine are Preferred Users only so this is a big step for me. I may re-think it and make it Friends Only but then not everyone would be able to read it, hence the reason why it's public.


I've been feeling rather frazzled this week since my boss is on vacation, our office manager, and I've been there by myself the entire week except for one day. But, I've been doing really well and I've proven myself that I'm a necessity to the company. Back to my orginal point - me feeling frazzled. It's just like everyone is depending on me to be there on time for me to be able to make sure their tickets are done properly, I mean I can't even leave my little office area to eat lunch because within 10 minutes they will call me back up to the front for something, and at first it was nice and I felt important but now I'm just ready for it to be over. I don't have Manager in my title and I'm not getting paid enough to work this hard. I'm just ready for all the weight to be lifted off my shoulders. I'm also not getting enough sleep, going to bed around 12am-1am and then waking up at 7:30am is defenitaly taking a toll on me, I've been getting bad headaches and I am just always exhausted. Hopefully on my two days off, in a row, I'll be able to relax and get some sleep. Hopefully I'll be getting my raise in 2 months which is what they promised me when I was interview. And I need to get my paperwork in for my insurance so I can take care of myself. Why is it that once you get a job that's pretty much all you talk about? I don't like talking about my job that much, yet I just wrote a whole paragraph about it.


Though I have a lot of things to do on Saturday I think this weekend will be very relaxing. I'll be getting a haircut, finally, since I haven't in about six months and it's driving me nuts. And then I'm taking my ring in to get cleaned and inspected. Probably doesn't sound like a fun, but I'm pretty excited about it. Then I've got to clean this apartment, top to bottom, it really needs a scrubbing. Sunday I will not be doing anything it's just going to be my day to rest and not worry about anything.


Something that has been really weighing on my mind is our wedding is coming up in less then 7 months. And what do I have done? Nothing. I've browsed and gotten and idea of what I'd like to be at my wedding but I haven't made any purchases towards the big day. Money is always going to be an issue, or at least for the next few years, so I can't use that as an excuse. I'm almost starting to feel as if I don't want to have a big wedding with everyone there. I don't want to worry about if they are going to show up or not and then feel crappy later on if they don't. Part of me wants to just elope but I think my parents would be upset if I did that. Or I was thinking of having a super small wedding and just having very close friends, my parents and hopefully brother, the mother-in-law and his brother and sister and that's all. And then just send out invitations to everyone else. Because honestly I could care less, right now, if anyone else was there. None of my family members keep in touch with me, which is pretty sad, and I'm sure it would be such a hassle for them to take time out of their busy lives to enjoy this moment with me. At the end of the day all I want is to be married to him.


Speaking of him, our one year anniversary is coming up pretty quickly and I'm excited. Which will also mean we are common law married, haha! Even on the bad days we have I still wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I still have no idea what to get him, guys are always so hard to shop for, but I'm sure I'll figure something out plus I've got to make up for not giving him a birthday present.


That's all for now, I guess, let's see if I actually use this damn thing.